Sometimes, when I haven’t anything better to do, I go online & visit my blog here to see what I was up to around this date a year or two ago. I see that this time last year, I was excitedly comparing my ongoing weight loss to 8 sacks of sugar and the February before that… well, you get the idea.
I admit my life (for the most part) has been a pretty boring one, but up until a few months ago it was a comfortable one too; I enjoyed my daily routine and familiar surroundings. Why I gave it all up, along with years of accumulated books & other things to move back to a hometown which hasn’t been my hometown for thirty years… into a dowdy apartment no less, overrun by a hyper-watchful landlord (who stormed into my place one night because I had my kitchen window cranked open a couple inches while it was sprinkling outside)… it was a poor decision made under duress, from the TMJ that was ravaging my health & mental well-being. We’ve all done regretful things, but this was a doozy.
When I started this particular blog, I was going to try & make it a more light-hearted one. Here’s what I miss from one year ago! My worn couch that was fine for flopping down on, Obama in the White House (had to throw that in), my own thermostat, free tv because I lived in the city, my sexy but deadly Russian neighbor Uriel, etc.; but the more stuff I come up with, the angrier I get!
And now, a recent conversation with my 84 year old neighbor Nancy
ME: Hi Nancy, how are you today?
HER: Eh? What’s that?
ME: I SAID HI NANCY.
HER: I’m not deaf.
ME: I’m sorry—how are you this morning?
HER: Not good, I dropped a can of tomato juice on my foot.
ME: Ouch, I sure am sorry. So how long have you been here now, 6 months?
HER: Seven months. A long time.
ME: I take it you don’t like it anymore than when you moved in?
HER: Too many do’s & don’ts. The woman who lives below me snores!
ME: Yeah, the floors here are pretty thin.
HER: You remind me of my husband.
ME: Yeah, you mentioned that once before.
HER: He died in his sleep, August 1988. He was 55. Same age as you.
ME: I know.
HER: When I got up that morning, I thought he decided to sleep in. So I did my things, had my coffee, went out, came back and made lunch. He was still in bed, cold as a fish!
ME: Well… nice chatting with you Nancy!
Believe it or not, she’s the one bright spot around here. So for the time being I have no choice but to stick it out… I signed a one year lease back in September, and unlike prison there’s no means of escape. I just hope that when the time comes, I can get some version of my old life back again.
There’s no place like home….my old apartment, that is